I'm still in the midst of a lot of major changes. I went through an overdose of anti-anxiety pills which led to taking those completely out of the equation and learning about addiction. Because I was unable to work, I am now unemployed but receiving benefits. I came back from Gatecon with a newly inspired joy that I'd somehow lost. I've lived many different places in my life and over time, I've lost that dreamy quality and replaced it with the words of my family who, through the best of intentions, have always thought I was a bit strange for having such aspirations.
I'm not unhappy but I'm also missing something. I haven't moved in over a year and I've been in Wisconsin since 1999. I want to change that but I want to be sane about it. Leaving my family isn't something I'd do lightly. Though I am proud of where we've ended up. My sister would probably not be as deeply ingrained in our lives as she is if I hadn't impulsively pulled her out of a home to live with me 6 years ago.
The future is uncertain. I'm probably going to a convention in Atlanta in September almost entirely because people I've met elsewhere have been incredibly supportive. I'm literally at the bottom of the financial ladder but that's ok. It gives me time to plan, time to write, time to dream and then I can take flight.
No matter where I go, Angie and John will be in my heart.
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"I am proud of where we ended up". Hooray.
ReplyDeleteHope you have an awesome time in Atlanta.