Where oh where did October go?

So many changes in the last month. I may ramble a bit but I should cover everything. First John was discharged from the hospital and I am pretty sure everyone knows how I feel about that. Short version: there are still no answers except 'he keeps getting sick and we'll keep treating him with antibiotics'. Of course the underlying issue is that at some point, the antibiotics won't work. That scares me as it would anyone facing the mortality of a loved one. But one day at a time. He has a doctor appt tomorrow. He also starts his new Day Program tomorrow. Mom and I both giggled when we saw the ad in the paper for a one-to-one person needed at his new Day Program. As I've mentioned before, John can be challenging so she/he will be in for a challenge.

In sadder news, the woman who managed John's group home was laid off. I feel this blow deeply because I feel like we've lost someone we trusted who was on John's side. This economy frankly keeps kicking us all while we're down. But on we march.

Angie has been much like her namesake this month. At both weddings she was an Angel - completely delighting everyone she met. I'm so proud of her and of my family both those who have helped integrate her and those who were open to really seeing her for the first time. It really validated my decision to bring her out of the CBRF she was in 5 years ago. Of course it hasn't been an easy journey but to see her fitting in was awesome. We have one more wedding this weekend - the 'big' one and I'll be attending to the bride who is my cousin so Mom will be Angie's chaperone.

Mom and I have both been able to visit John more since he moved and when he's not in the hospital. One of the challenges with John is wondering if he notices when we aren't there. While the hospital stays weren't fun, they helped me connect with John on a different level and that has made visiting him easier.

I've been job hunting and its been three months now. It hasn't been going all that well. I've been trying to do some soul searching as well and I've come back to the idea of being a teacher, specificially a special education teacher. I've applied to a program. There are lots of hoops to jump through and while its a recurring theme in my life (this rethinking of my career), its still a big change. Patience though and prayer/meditation.